Like this:

It’s not actually about insomnia – of all things in the world, that’s one I’ve never had a problem with. Falling asleep? Man. I am a champ. Waking up? Not so much. And my day-to-day running has suffered because of my tiredness. And the tiredness? Let’s face it. I’m getting enough sleep. It’s an excuse.

It’s about wanting it. As other people have noted, it’s easy to forget why these goals are important. How to get motivated and stay that way. How not to get bored.

I’m doing great with getting in the long runs on the weekends. I’m actually loving them more than I ever thought I could. It helps that I can just turn off my brain and take as long as I need to finish. I just have to keep running. Speed and time? Eh. I like knowing what my pace is, but I don’t really care so much. I’m covering the miles, I’m Getting Things Done.

And that’s great, because the long runs have been a major mental and physical challenge, one I have succeeded at. I know how to keep going! Just one foot in front of the other, until I hit the end of the miles. I can do that! And it’s great to know.

Where I’ve been falling down, though, is the runs through out the week. I skipped one run altogether last week – making me short 3 miles on the #OctGTD challenge. It’s bumming me out – not so much because I can’t make up those miles, but because I haven’t had any motivation to run during the week. All I want to do in the mornings is sleep, and when I come home from work (even when work is less insane, as it has been lately), I just don’t. wanna. And that’s a problem – these runs are when I should be picking up speed and increasing my confidence. The trouble is that  I’m almost overconfident here – I know I can knock these runs out easily! I will just do it TOMORROW, you guys. For real. And it will be easy!

Well. It won’t keep being easy if I don’t do them. Part of the problem is that I’m burning out on running – the only other exercise I have really kept up with during this training is yoga, and I’m looking forward to the time After the Half when I get back to doing more strength training, pilates, spinning and swimming. But for the next two weeks, I need to keep my running going and get into this.

It’s doable, it’s possible, and it’s important. And I’m running six miles after work today.

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